I've Lost Count.........

Life is definitely an amazing thing. Tonight as I sat in Hayden's room feeding and rocking her to sleep I could hear Jordan in the other room with Taylor and Bentley, quietly getting them ready for bed. Bentley's sweet, tender voice was asking him to read a book, Taylor had already fallen asleep and Jordan was clicking the closet back into place from when she had knocked it off the tracks (once again) earlier today. I found myself smiling as I thought about our lives and how not perfect and perfect they are all at the same time. As I held Hayden in my arms I smiled and began to think about all the things that happen in our lives that I simply cannot keep track of. I decided that I needed to compose a brief list of what crossed my mind that drives me crazy during the day, but I always want to remember. After all, what if it's true when they say, "You're going to miss this when it's gone."

Here goes........

* I really have no idea how many times this happens, but it is A LOT! Taylor and Bentley without fail - everyday - at least once - will break their closet door. Sometimes I can fix it myself and other times I have NO idea how they messed it up that bad so I have to wait for Jordan to fix it when he gets home (like tonight). It amazes me how every time it happens Taylor will say, "Oh I am sooooo sorry daddy, I didn't mean to.........it just happened."

* The girls wearing my shoes even though I have told them REPEATEDLY not to do that since they have their own dress-up shoes. This does NOT work & they continue to disobey me!

* I have definitely lost count how many times I ask Bentley NOT to pick her nose and her reply is always, "I'm not!" And I say, "Your finger is in your nose right now, You are picking your nose!" And then she says to me, "You are!" What can you possibly say to a two year old after that?

* Another thing that I have lost count of is how many times I lose ALL of Hayden's binkies. I will search the house high and low when I really need one and then the next day I find like 4 of them all at once. Why?

* This one is actually a good thing and one that I hope never runs out. I really really really can't keep count of how many times Jordan puts us girls first. An example is from tonight at dinner. He was buttering a piece of bread and I was just waiting for him to finish so I could make a piece for myself. Suddenly he handed me his piece of bread and started making another one for him. Silly and small I know, but definitely something that makes me feel loved and appreciated. I hope he knows how much we love him ( I say this in hopes that all the things that drive me crazy about him will vanish as I remember things like this!)

* I also can't keep track of how many times I stare at my children is amazement of how incredible and interesting, challenging, creative, stubborn, determined, sweet and definitely not sweet, beautiful and absolutely my favorite people to be around they are. GIRLS - You are everything to me!

I really am thankful for a life of challenging moments, when I feel like I might just tumble to the ground and stay there for a little while.....because then down the road.....I am learning that those moments in time really weren't too bad. So here's to all the things in my life that I will continue to lose count of!!!!